Honestly, I never care to look for LOVE as to me it will come eventually even we don’t bother to seek. All I cared about was WORK , DAD, SISTERS, NIECE and FUN…..But things changed when I was introduced to this tall and dashing lad by a friend of mine, Shasha in 2004.
I was at the Starbucks KLCC baru lepas lepak2 with my buddies after office hour. Suddenly Shasha called me and said ‘Shigim, I have someone to introduce you with’ and I pulak like ‘ Ala, Shasha..don’t bother I’m just fine being single la….’. Persistently, she said ‘ala,kejap jer, this guy memang baik and my friend la.. Kalau you tak interested, you treat as a friend je…I pon ok jer …Kawan bior beribu kan….Then, they came and join me kat Starbucks. First impression : ‘seriousnya this guy’ (the look) tapi bila dia start sembang memang bestlah.. boleh ngam.. But that day, we had a short stint la sebab I kena balik cepat , jam terok…And I mintak diri ( he claimed this time me as playing hard to get …hehehehe..swear..it’s because of the jam ya). But after few acquitances, memang rasa he is the best breakfast buddy that I had, like every morning/lunch mesti lepak..with or without Shasha. We shared so many stories and being open about it…Honestly tak expect a totally perfect strangers became my good buddy.. Siap kenenkan dia kat orang lain tapi he’s not interested…(without knowing rupa2nya ada udang di sebalik mee)…*wink wink*J
Unfortunately, after a year of lepak-lepaking together, he was assigned to Miri in Sarawak and that time I rasa….DAMN!! Boringnya… And I noticed I had a different feeling when he was there…RINDUUUU yang teramat tapi I still control the machoness and buat2 cam biasa.. So once he’s in KL for meeting memang tak lepas peluang jumpa.. Tapi sedih when he has to go back to Miri. Same story if I go to Miri, he’ll entertain me makan2 and lepak .. Bila balik teringat la pulak…haiyoooo…Tapi I bzkan diri with keja and deny my feelings until he’s back in 2006. Right after he’s back, I noticed the way he look at me was so different. Akhirnya, ter ‘spill out of the bean bag’ about his real feelings towards me.. I yang terkembang setaman ni suka bagai nak rak but still I ask for few days to think of it… Indeed, I solat istikharah and seek my family opinions.. Alhamdulillah, everything positive and without realizing, we dah jumped into marriage topic by end 2007.
Dah pulak he was assigned to Houston for a year .. Time tu memang another mati kutu berlaku dalam hidup sebab dahlah nak kawen, kena pulak handle sorang2…Tapi memandangkan ke ‘power’anku in multitasking, all the details on wedding berjaya jugak dilaksanakan dengan assistance from my family. And I updated him on everything I’ve done.. Dia ok jer….And his family came for risik and tunang terus in June 2007 . So basically a month tunang, both of us got married in a beautiful wedding on 5th July 2007 (and guess what
I still keep the wedding log book – invitation list, to do list etc…..yeaayyy!!)
And I love him every single days, hours, minutes and seconds…..I want to grow old gracefully with him, perform our ibadah together and ideally he become the IMAM of the family.
Until my last breath, I want him to love me unconditionally and to redha and forgive segala dosa2 I if I’m no more around (Seorang isteri yang meninggal and suaminya redha, InsyaAllah syurga baginya).
I do not have wealth, but I have lots of love to give and I gave you zuriat that will lead us together to Jannah, InsyaAllah. I’m Glad and Happy dikurniakan anak2 yang comel dan bijak…Alhamdulillah ….
Sorry ya kengkawan… This post agak fairlong(*feeling) sikit….please bear with me…J
